Monday 22nd June 2020 – Belated

Days are blurring as I write this a day late.
This whole lockdown mentality I think has peaked.  I’ve found myself reaching saturation point in relation to being online, the feeling of constantly being scrutinized through video conferencing.  It feels like at times that there is an electronic eye on me at all times.
I’ve noticed my sleep has become disturbed again and when I sit in front of a computer now, my intermittent leg bouncing starts straight away, whereas before it would usually take an hour or two.
As this is late in writing, I have heard the new guidelines that have come out from the government which seems to be suggesting the the 4th July will become our independence day as lockdown measures are going to be relaxed quite dramatically.  I imagine the queue for the pub and the hairdressers and barbers will be reminiscent of the Harrods January sale in the 1980’s.
The relaxed rules means that hotel, holiday cottages, caravans etc will also open up on the 4th July.  It will be a relief for many holidaymakers, including me.  There is a lovely cottage with a fishing lake waiting for me and my family in August.  I think I am so ready for a holiday now.  I think the impact of this time is beginning to take its toll.
Mental health has been an increasingly growing worry during the pandemic.  The extended time with family members, adjusting to unusual work environments, unable to see friends and family.  Financial worry and hardship, uncertainty of the coronavirus possibly catching it, people dying.  The whole event has had such immediate and long lasting impact on so many people.
As we start to think about coming out of lockdown, we are told that the virus is still very much active.  I am trying to reflect on the time that I have had to embrace more silence, more time and more nature.  Closed off from that human contact, I’ve been fortunate to be with family that I love and enjoy time with.  However this has taken it’s toll on all of us.
Although the casualty rate has crept closer to 43,000 in this past week, we are told that we seem to be through the worse of it and now as we start to think about this new future, we still need to keep following this guidance, living cautiously and finding time for ourselves, moments of peace and quiet.
For the first time since lockdown, I went out on the 16th and cast my first line, on an ambitious specialist lake, and yet on managing to land a couple of beautiful roach.  And this time that i spent by the pond helped calm the growing storm, headed off the rising frustration that I have felt growing.
We will reflect on this time and in the future read academic papers about the impact this has had on individuals and society as a whole.
It will make interesting reading i’m sure.
Until next time, Take care and be Well
Sincerely Yours, Paul